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Mar. 17th, 2005 06:07 pmI have this kind of icky sense of having a ton to do, but not being in the mood to do anything at all--neither work, nor the things that I usually enjoy. It's really strange because when you aren't in the mood to do ANYTHING, you just kind of sit there and feel awkward, since you don't feel like sitting around and doing nothing, either.
I've been getting enough sleep lately, since I went to bed at liek 11.30 the past couple of nights. But yesterday and today I've awoken more tired than ever. So getting a decent amount of sleep makes me feel more exhausted, more spacy, and just as sick? Kill me now...
I totally forgot to do my psychology homework and Ms. Galante got angry with me. Couple that with the fact we messed up our literature review and haven't corrected it yet, and the homework assignment I unceremoniously skipped on Monday...and it's plain that I'm not doing so well in psychology. And my lack of coherence lately has made it really hard to feel confident in writing and translating and other things I used to just -do- without thinking. I hate it. Hate.
Chemistry class is a constant source of fear and dread. I never understand the material enough to get all the problems, or sometimes any at all. I could probably finish all of them if I had the time and energy and mental power to put into it, but I'm so tired and desperate that I can never work to my potential. So I live in terror that Mr. Duranceau will call on me and I'll try to answer and be so totally incorrect that he'll realize how little knowledge I actually posess. For some reason, I want his respect and it means something that he'd think I'm stupid. Which I kind of am..I'm just too tired...-___-;;;
I keep making mistakes in French, too, but Ms. Lahey likes me and keeps this sort of adamant faith that I'm an awesome French student with a ton of potential to learn and excel. I'm glad that she does, but at the same time I feel badly since she does definitely show me favoritism, all the time, and it's very apparent. She doesn't hide her preferences at all, and I feel really badly when I hear people gossiping about how Ms. Lahey hates them. She probably doesn't, since she's not the type to hate students, but she's probably disapproving to them, though they probably deserve her respect just as much as I do. I lack the energy to do as well in French as I used to, and it seems to me that it shows...
We did, however, manage to learn the present subjunctive today. That made me happy. Je veule. Tu boives... <--- anyone else think these look totally cool?
...I'm just weird. Oh well.
I'm going to go be bored elsewhere. And try to do something. Who knows, I might even finish my homework. -.-
<3
~Rai
I've been getting enough sleep lately, since I went to bed at liek 11.30 the past couple of nights. But yesterday and today I've awoken more tired than ever. So getting a decent amount of sleep makes me feel more exhausted, more spacy, and just as sick? Kill me now...
I totally forgot to do my psychology homework and Ms. Galante got angry with me. Couple that with the fact we messed up our literature review and haven't corrected it yet, and the homework assignment I unceremoniously skipped on Monday...and it's plain that I'm not doing so well in psychology. And my lack of coherence lately has made it really hard to feel confident in writing and translating and other things I used to just -do- without thinking. I hate it. Hate.
Chemistry class is a constant source of fear and dread. I never understand the material enough to get all the problems, or sometimes any at all. I could probably finish all of them if I had the time and energy and mental power to put into it, but I'm so tired and desperate that I can never work to my potential. So I live in terror that Mr. Duranceau will call on me and I'll try to answer and be so totally incorrect that he'll realize how little knowledge I actually posess. For some reason, I want his respect and it means something that he'd think I'm stupid. Which I kind of am..I'm just too tired...-___-;;;
I keep making mistakes in French, too, but Ms. Lahey likes me and keeps this sort of adamant faith that I'm an awesome French student with a ton of potential to learn and excel. I'm glad that she does, but at the same time I feel badly since she does definitely show me favoritism, all the time, and it's very apparent. She doesn't hide her preferences at all, and I feel really badly when I hear people gossiping about how Ms. Lahey hates them. She probably doesn't, since she's not the type to hate students, but she's probably disapproving to them, though they probably deserve her respect just as much as I do. I lack the energy to do as well in French as I used to, and it seems to me that it shows...
We did, however, manage to learn the present subjunctive today. That made me happy. Je veule. Tu boives... <--- anyone else think these look totally cool?
...I'm just weird. Oh well.
I'm going to go be bored elsewhere. And try to do something. Who knows, I might even finish my homework. -.-
<3
~Rai
