omg life.

I keep digging holes for myself.

I'm so excited now over things that will never happen.

And even if they do, it'll be a ton of trauma, hard decisions, and probably even MORE hole-digging before I get there.

SOMEONE will be let down. I just wish good things didn't have to be so complicated.

I also wish I didn't feel so sick whenever I *actually* give thought to this whole mess.