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So I decided to take a stroll to the Walgreens that is "really close". I wanted to see exactly what getting there entailed (as it seems to be the only multipurpose store in the vicinity), and also to get some of the supplies I didn't have luck finding at the sketchy grocery maplace. ...I nearly died of heat exhaustion. To be fair, it was pretty close...maybe about a mile, maybe a little less.

I confirmed that walking around Tucson simply isn't an option, at least not in this season. I slathered on the sunscreen, popped out my obnoxious pink umbrella, and walked at a pace that was pretty friggen slow, and it still basically killed me. I love how in Boston, I get annoyed at myself when I DON'T walk two miles per day, but in Tucson, I feel accomplished like I ran a marathon.

The fact that I haven't slept in about 30 hours now nor consumed anything besides two packets of airline pretzels and a couple little glasses of iced tea since I got here probably didn't help my stamina, but meh.

I think that tomorrow I need to get a bike. Like. I need to get it tomorrow...walking isn't working anymore, and I can't get food otherwise. That's a big problem. So those are my goals for tomorrow...cruise for a cheap bike, and also, to go to Target to get some other householdy things. There is apparently a bus I can catch right outside the complex that goes to a mall with a Target in it. We shall see.

On the bright side, I think that the abject heat, my lack of a car, and my inability to locate food (meaning that when I do locate it, I will need it to be nourishing), will probably lead me to better physical shape. At least, I hope. Right now though, I'm a TOTAL mess in every single way and I think that in the interest of living to see tomorrow I need to use my newly purchased soap and such to shower and then make my bed and go to sleep.

I have discovered when I'm totally worn beyond belief, my eyes don't tear anymore. They probably know that they need to conserve the moisture. I dunno, somehow right now I feel somewhat better about this whole shithole. And I'm determined that I will not give up.

PS. it was interesting. I stepped into the Walgreens, which looked like every other Walgreens in the country, and suddenly I felt like I could totally be back in Arlington again. The illusion was so powerful that I tricked myself, just for a moment, and I could feel relief flow up through my body like molten lava. I am so ridiculously homesick. This isn't cool at all.

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Can I send you a little package of love and well-wishes? I totally understand if you don't feel like giving out your new address to that chick from the internet, but I promise I'm thousands of miles away with no stalking intentions.

I'm sorry you're so unhappy :(

It's alright, it's an unhappy I need to feel so that I can get over it and be better. :) That's my take on it, anyway.

But also--you're not just that chick from the internet, I met you, remember? o.O I wouldn't care if you stalked me anyway, because why would you want to? Hahah. :) Don't worry about that, for sure.

I actually don't think I have an address yet, though. I haven't been given my mailbox key and I think at that point they're going to tell me what exactly my address is. I don't know my zipcode offhand either xD Once I get that stuff together, I'll definitely give you my address if you want it, but you definitely shouldn't feel obligated to send me anything. Just the sentiment that you're willing to totally cheers me up, so thanks :3 <3

Still totally "from" the internet. And I wouldn't offer to send a little box of joy unless I wanted to.

I'll try and get the NU crew to put together a little something for you when we get back. Be aware though, I might use your address for stalking purposes 0;)
j/k j/k
And no, not eating does not always = better shape.
Usually it just means way too exhausted to get a proper workout.
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A friend gave me this advice a while back:
"If you're freaking out, then you should just let yourself freak out. Let it all out until there's nothing more to be let out, then wake up to the world, have the confidence to keep going, and know that you'll be stronger when all is said and done."

*hug*

Oh no I meant, I don't really have the same resources to eat ridiculous amounts of junk food like I do at home. And considering even just getting food is a physical venture, that's the reason for being in better shape...at least potentially. :)

But yeah, I enjoy that advice. That's what I'm telling myself--that I can get used to this and if I can grow to love this place then I can go anywhere! And I'm sure I can. Even just this morning, things feel a little better. Not being 36 hours of sleep deprived works wonders, it does.

Thanks for the support <3 *hugs*

Oh, haha, yeah. Tucson climate + food being further away should be really good for getting into better shape.

I'm jealous :p

First off - I'm SO sorry for not being on earlier! I would have been but my street had a power outage for a long while. D: I feel really bad for not being there when you really needed someone. :/

And I'm also so, so sorry that things are going so badly. *HUGS* Tucson sounds so scary... I mean here in OC it's very car-oriented and it's infested by fast food places, but there are also good grocery stores! o__O

I wish there was something I could do to make things better. :| I like

xnotyourangelx's idea though, I'd love to send you a care package. :D But just... hold on to that feeling, of feeling slightly better. I hope that once your classes actually start and you make new friends, things will get better. But no matter what, I'll always be here for you. :)

It's weird, because SoCal, what I've seen of it anyway, is ridiculously similarly set up to this place, but it never really felt like this. Possibly the fact that my aunt lived walking distance from a Trader Joe's and a coffee shop made me never think about it--or the fact that I was able to borrow a bike and never really had to walk much? I don't know, I'm really actually just trying to figure out what makes this place so unfriendly.

I do know that it'll get better. :) Even just this morning, renewed rest and perspective is pretty helpful.

You don't have to send me anything, though--I do have a lot of what I need, including your support <3 If you really want my address I can give it to you later, though...I don't actually remember the zip code offhand. >>;;

But yeah basically--thanks :D <3

I meant to give you this before you left, but I forgot to print it out. It's not really *finished* and I fully intend to color it when I get a chance (road to hell?), but until then:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v311/arsinyk/art/Rai-outline.jpg

Aww it's fabulous :D You forgot my glasses though, assuming you didn't mean to leave them off. I do that when I draw myself a lot. >>; I've never seen a realistic drawing of myself, it's really cool :D I'm flattered you'd draw me, haha. <3

I actually tried drawing your glasses, but they *really* weren't working, so I decided to add them later / leave them off.

I'm glad you like it. :D

D: Oh no. That is not cool. I have no clue how you keep such a positive attitude through all the shit that keeps getting thrown at you, but I'm really glad that you have mad courages to push through it like you do. I want to end this with "get better," but it's not you being fucked up, it's the town. D: Survive until winter? And then be better? (It feels really weird telling you to hold out for winter. On account of you being, you know. Anti-winter. But do be better.)

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