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May. 27th, 2005 10:24 pmToday was very odd, indeed. I woke up, got up, got a head rush, and fainted for about 10 minutes...I came to and asked dad to call Carol, but nobody answered at her house, so he gave me water and pills and commanded I get up and go to school.
So I did. And succeeded, despite the not-exactly-promising start.
I finally presented my psychology report. :3 And then the psychology people went to Bagels US, and it was pretty fun. The people there were really accomodating and friendly; I bought a juice with the lid already popped, and the lady was really nice about letting me have a new one. Lauren did her presentation while there, and it was really interesting. She studied how people's choices of clothes influence how others react to them, and her results were really telling. Apparently the people at tattoo parlors are really accepting of everyone. o.O
And then Mr. Duranceau went on a huge tangent in class about earthquakes, volcanoes, tsunamis, large metropolises, and the world's most giant towers. And then I think I failed a math quiz, and school was over.
I am so in love with my electric guitar. I love how it looks, how it feels, and how it sounds. I'm no good, but I just want to play it all the time. I'm getting really accustomed to it, too. I took out my acoustic and it felt really unweildy, thick and bulky, and above all, so LOUD! I can rip as hard as I want on my electric, and unless it's plugged into the amp my teacher lent me, it doesn't disturb anybody. Even the softest strumming on the acoustic exploded with sound...><;
A huge musical inspiration is Dream Theater, of course. Of whom, coincidentally, Katie gave me the latest album today. One that doesn't come out until summer. X333 Aaron enables such things. I keep thinking that Dream Theater can't get any better, but I ADORE this album. So. Freaking. Much. I've been listening to it constantly and I just can't get enough. I think I'm going to go crazy waiting for the concert. So far it seems as though me, Katie, Aaron, and Robin(?) are going. It's only three months away...
*sigh* nihongo no kurasu was an hour earlier, today. We learnt all the months, and how to say what day today is, and what day a birthday is on. I really have to study my list, since I find myself unable to recall much of what I should be able to. I also haven't grilled Roman for words in quite some time. Hmm... Either way, it's amazing how much kanji we're learning. It feels like we don't know very much, but we're moving pretty steadily. And Carol's absolutely amazing at reading...<3
So today was a good day, with the exception that my mom is starting to get sick again. She hasn't been in the hospital since before my brother was born, and hasn't really been that sick in a number of years. But she's starting to relapse again, and it's scary to see her deteriorate. ;_; She can barely move right now and she looks really, really aged. She says if she gets much worse she may have to return to the hospital. I hope more than anything that that doesn't happen. I hate that someone so hardworking as my mom has to suffer through what she does. Even when she's not as sick as she is right now, her illness constantly bothers her, every day of her life. She's so strong and fit that sometimes she can make you forget about it, but it's always there. It scares me to no end that I'm next in line for it. Mom is so strong, yet it impedes her so...I don't know what'll happen to me if it turns out that I carry it as well. I'm so much weaker than she is. Yet the doctors say given my current problems, the chances of me developping Chrones are pretty high. But while it's scary, it's something I'll have to deal with when it happens. Witnessing my mom's bravery and perseverence will be an insipration and role model for me if I do get sick, anyway. I'm not going to worry about it. It's endlessly selfish to worry about myself when she's the one who's deathly ill right now.
I guess this means we won't be going to Maine. Mom had originally said that aunt Mary had urged her to visit this weekend, and she wanted me to go with her. But seeing as she's pretty much bedridden...yeah. ~~ Thank god it's a long weekend, too. Maybe then mom will be able to recover a little bit, and I'll be able to regain some of my wits... I want to wake up early tomorrow, so that Saturday can be eventful and interesting and long, as it was last week. I also want to go back to either Sasuga, or the Borders in Boston. Too bad I'll be broke for another 4 months, uhuhuhu. I might go to Boston just to walk about, anyway. ...If it doesn't rain, bler.
If anyone else has any other ideas, (preferably cheap ideas..) pwease call me. :E After all...don't have to do homework til Monday. ^.~
~Rai
So I did. And succeeded, despite the not-exactly-promising start.
I finally presented my psychology report. :3 And then the psychology people went to Bagels US, and it was pretty fun. The people there were really accomodating and friendly; I bought a juice with the lid already popped, and the lady was really nice about letting me have a new one. Lauren did her presentation while there, and it was really interesting. She studied how people's choices of clothes influence how others react to them, and her results were really telling. Apparently the people at tattoo parlors are really accepting of everyone. o.O
And then Mr. Duranceau went on a huge tangent in class about earthquakes, volcanoes, tsunamis, large metropolises, and the world's most giant towers. And then I think I failed a math quiz, and school was over.
I am so in love with my electric guitar. I love how it looks, how it feels, and how it sounds. I'm no good, but I just want to play it all the time. I'm getting really accustomed to it, too. I took out my acoustic and it felt really unweildy, thick and bulky, and above all, so LOUD! I can rip as hard as I want on my electric, and unless it's plugged into the amp my teacher lent me, it doesn't disturb anybody. Even the softest strumming on the acoustic exploded with sound...><;
A huge musical inspiration is Dream Theater, of course. Of whom, coincidentally, Katie gave me the latest album today. One that doesn't come out until summer. X333 Aaron enables such things. I keep thinking that Dream Theater can't get any better, but I ADORE this album. So. Freaking. Much. I've been listening to it constantly and I just can't get enough. I think I'm going to go crazy waiting for the concert. So far it seems as though me, Katie, Aaron, and Robin(?) are going. It's only three months away...
*sigh* nihongo no kurasu was an hour earlier, today. We learnt all the months, and how to say what day today is, and what day a birthday is on. I really have to study my list, since I find myself unable to recall much of what I should be able to. I also haven't grilled Roman for words in quite some time. Hmm... Either way, it's amazing how much kanji we're learning. It feels like we don't know very much, but we're moving pretty steadily. And Carol's absolutely amazing at reading...<3
So today was a good day, with the exception that my mom is starting to get sick again. She hasn't been in the hospital since before my brother was born, and hasn't really been that sick in a number of years. But she's starting to relapse again, and it's scary to see her deteriorate. ;_; She can barely move right now and she looks really, really aged. She says if she gets much worse she may have to return to the hospital. I hope more than anything that that doesn't happen. I hate that someone so hardworking as my mom has to suffer through what she does. Even when she's not as sick as she is right now, her illness constantly bothers her, every day of her life. She's so strong and fit that sometimes she can make you forget about it, but it's always there. It scares me to no end that I'm next in line for it. Mom is so strong, yet it impedes her so...I don't know what'll happen to me if it turns out that I carry it as well. I'm so much weaker than she is. Yet the doctors say given my current problems, the chances of me developping Chrones are pretty high. But while it's scary, it's something I'll have to deal with when it happens. Witnessing my mom's bravery and perseverence will be an insipration and role model for me if I do get sick, anyway. I'm not going to worry about it. It's endlessly selfish to worry about myself when she's the one who's deathly ill right now.
I guess this means we won't be going to Maine. Mom had originally said that aunt Mary had urged her to visit this weekend, and she wanted me to go with her. But seeing as she's pretty much bedridden...yeah. ~~ Thank god it's a long weekend, too. Maybe then mom will be able to recover a little bit, and I'll be able to regain some of my wits... I want to wake up early tomorrow, so that Saturday can be eventful and interesting and long, as it was last week. I also want to go back to either Sasuga, or the Borders in Boston. Too bad I'll be broke for another 4 months, uhuhuhu. I might go to Boston just to walk about, anyway. ...If it doesn't rain, bler.
If anyone else has any other ideas, (preferably cheap ideas..) pwease call me. :E After all...don't have to do homework til Monday. ^.~
~Rai
