Endings

So now my eyelids are heavy with sleepiness and my nose is sniffly and I feel really cozy slouched over in my sweatshirt.

I am not studying for my Japanese final right now, though I probably should.

Instead I'm reflecting upon all the friends who went out of their way to make tonight amazing for me.

I love my friends. I feel loved, and like I'll actually be missed. Which...while that's sad, it's also in many ways a nice feeling.

I have no more classes left at Northeastern. Today was the last day, and I can officially say that I had complete perfect attendance this semester, unless you count my Japanese class (on midterm day..!) for which I showed up 45 minutes late.
Anyone who knew me in high school will understand why my having perfect attendence in even ONE class is pretty amazing.

I have a final tomorrow and a final on Friday, and I move my stuff back to Arlington Friday night.

It's so weird. I'm not ready. I haven't had enough time living down the hall from Courtney and Jeff and downstairs from Steph and upstairs from Lynnea and down the street from Jeremy and Pat and Robin. I'm not ready to try to swipe in to West F and have it not work since I don't live here anymore. I'm not ready to pack up my shit and stop calling this place home.

In this moment though, I'm in a sort of sleepy, contented haze that makes everything seem alright.

I love my friends.

So this is me having forgotten to get coffee

On my craziest night of finals hell.

I almost just want to give up and not study *at all*. But I can't do that...I won't do that. It's not so much the actual coffee that I needed as much as the excuse to walk across campus and take a break.

12 hours from now, I will hopefully be done with the exam and getting all the sleep I've already forfeited for tonight. 24 huors from now, my side of the room will be as sparce as my roomate's side is already.

He just gave us the study prompts yesterday.

This is so not fair.

I think I'd be complaining about it even if it WERE fair, though.

Meh. I feel strangely betrayed and have absolutely no justification for feeling this way. Can it be weekend yet plz?