I don't know what it is...

[arrowwhiskers]

But I just can't do it anymore. I have had so much time to start my homework and I have been utterly incapable all day. The inability feels almost physical, I can't physically make myself do my work. I have to do some preliminary research on Ecuador for tomorrow, as well as read about 50 pages of Spanish essays about dictatorships and human rights. Neither particularly difficult, and both pretty interesting, or at least they should be. But every time I crack open one of the books I got from the library or restore one of the Spanish PDFs, my brain seems to grind to a halt. All it can think about is how much I want to play Yoshi's Story DS or fiddle around with Andres's new RC helicopter. Or, fuck, do the dishes even. There are so many things I want to be doing, none of it what I actually have to do.

I feel like such a hedonist. But ever since I got a little better from being sick I just feel like I want a freaking rest for a moment. And given everything that needs to get done, I don't think that's going to happen over Thanksgiving break. Hell, if Christmas break works out the way it seems like it's going to and I go to Chihuahua, I'm not even entirely sure I'm going to get a nice complete rest over that break, either. I want to chill out and not worry about homework for once, and that makes it impossible to concentrate.

The ridiculous thing about all of this is, I'm fairly sure that if someone was like by the way, you *HAVE* to play video games right now and wash the dishes and fly the RC helicopter, I'd be like arrrgh fuck, but all I want to do is read about Latin American dictators.

*flails*

Comments

[vagabondalingua.livejournal.com]

You have to play video games right now, wash the damn dishes and fly that RC helicopter around the entire apartment complex. Now. Do it.

...Homework looking anymore interesting?

[arrowwhiskers.livejournal.com]

Not really, actually. I guess I've been proven wrong. :