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I'm a little proud of myself.
Dec. 6th, 2005 05:00 pmToday was spent mostly grumbling to myself and trying to decide if I should ask to go to the nurse. I was so close a number of times, but it was never -quite- serious enough, and in the end, I made it through the school day, and even managed to make up the math quiz afterschool. Which I unceremoniously failed. Boohoo.
I keep telling myself school is my job. It's what I have to do. My entire family has shit-for-lives right now, but everyone deals with it except me, and going to/staying in school when I can is my part. It's just so hard to remember that when I see my vision blotting out or feel like I'm about to puke. How do you recover from a disease that doesn't seem to exist? Doctors seem increasingly convinced it's almost all in my head, and yet the fact that I definitely do have 'good' and 'bad' days, and the apparent fluctuation in my sensation of health in any given day support my conviction that it's not entirely fabricated. Cognitive exercises seem minimally helpful, at best. However, I've decided small steps are the key, which means staying in school, like today, as well as getting into college. Once life takes the next step, I'll be able to work my way to recovery. I hope.
I am so enamored with Tufts University. It is so close, and the programs there seem fantastic. It is more than my top choice, it's the only place I want to go. I am just now really starting to get to work on college junk, which is a mistake on my part, but I really really just hope that I can do it. It will mean that I have a chance for a future, and I like that. :] I'm a little worried that my SAT2 math...well, it was horrible, haha, 54th percentile. However, I'm also finding myself increasingly grateful for all the school awards that have been ceremoniously dumped on my head over the past few years. Maybe it'll be enough to impress the Tufts people. I hope so! ^_^
Anyway, on to the bigger point. It's Christmas season. Two points. Point one. I'm sick, sick enough to be literally grounded in Arlington. Point two. I'm broke, my family's pretty broke...yeah. You get the idea. So, my shopping prospects aren't looking so good this season. However.
I'm stealing Tara's gift idea a little. Actually, entirely. However, being that my skills do not extend to writing awesome fics and drabblethings, it'll have to remain limited to art. I realize I am not the best artist, but I'm working on it, and in general I think I can draw rather pretty things if I really try. For the holidays, you may request things, and I will draw them. My Sheezyart can be accessed through that link to the upper left. You should be able to get a pretty decent idea of my style from my account there, and I'm willing to try to draw anything you'd like. However, naturally, there will be no guarantee on the quality of final results, especially if you request something really outrageous. I can only promise to do my best. Things to note.
~My style has indelible anime influences. I'm sorry if that bothers you.
~I'm not a creative person. Detailed requests are a really good thing.
~I'm pretty flexible when it comes to media; I usually color with colored pencil, but I'm willing to do watercolor or Photoshop, or even marker. If you have a preference, please specify!
~I will be really sad if nobody requests anything. Please do your part to make Rai happy.
That should be it, for now. Leave requests either in comments on this entry, or just ask me in person/online. My AIM is ShiningAardvark in case anyone didn't know, and I'm online unhealthy amounts. Oh, and ~Happy Holiday Season! ^__^
I keep telling myself school is my job. It's what I have to do. My entire family has shit-for-lives right now, but everyone deals with it except me, and going to/staying in school when I can is my part. It's just so hard to remember that when I see my vision blotting out or feel like I'm about to puke. How do you recover from a disease that doesn't seem to exist? Doctors seem increasingly convinced it's almost all in my head, and yet the fact that I definitely do have 'good' and 'bad' days, and the apparent fluctuation in my sensation of health in any given day support my conviction that it's not entirely fabricated. Cognitive exercises seem minimally helpful, at best. However, I've decided small steps are the key, which means staying in school, like today, as well as getting into college. Once life takes the next step, I'll be able to work my way to recovery. I hope.
I am so enamored with Tufts University. It is so close, and the programs there seem fantastic. It is more than my top choice, it's the only place I want to go. I am just now really starting to get to work on college junk, which is a mistake on my part, but I really really just hope that I can do it. It will mean that I have a chance for a future, and I like that. :] I'm a little worried that my SAT2 math...well, it was horrible, haha, 54th percentile. However, I'm also finding myself increasingly grateful for all the school awards that have been ceremoniously dumped on my head over the past few years. Maybe it'll be enough to impress the Tufts people. I hope so! ^_^
Anyway, on to the bigger point. It's Christmas season. Two points. Point one. I'm sick, sick enough to be literally grounded in Arlington. Point two. I'm broke, my family's pretty broke...yeah. You get the idea. So, my shopping prospects aren't looking so good this season. However.
I'm stealing Tara's gift idea a little. Actually, entirely. However, being that my skills do not extend to writing awesome fics and drabblethings, it'll have to remain limited to art. I realize I am not the best artist, but I'm working on it, and in general I think I can draw rather pretty things if I really try. For the holidays, you may request things, and I will draw them. My Sheezyart can be accessed through that link to the upper left. You should be able to get a pretty decent idea of my style from my account there, and I'm willing to try to draw anything you'd like. However, naturally, there will be no guarantee on the quality of final results, especially if you request something really outrageous. I can only promise to do my best. Things to note.
~My style has indelible anime influences. I'm sorry if that bothers you.
~I'm not a creative person. Detailed requests are a really good thing.
~I'm pretty flexible when it comes to media; I usually color with colored pencil, but I'm willing to do watercolor or Photoshop, or even marker. If you have a preference, please specify!
~I will be really sad if nobody requests anything. Please do your part to make Rai happy.
That should be it, for now. Leave requests either in comments on this entry, or just ask me in person/online. My AIM is ShiningAardvark in case anyone didn't know, and I'm online unhealthy amounts. Oh, and ~Happy Holiday Season! ^__^
