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arrowwhiskersBetween epic amounts of sleep, nonstop snow, a 16 hour party, and Sherlock Holmes with friends, the past few days have been pretty amazing, actually.
Which makes me wonder why I'm still such an restless lump of unhappy.
I am thinking...that when I get bored, those are the moments when depression hits hardest and cuts deepest. I had come up with a whole bunch of ideas for things I wanted to do and accomplish over the break, but I have forgotten many, and those I can recall now seem unappealing without exception.
It doesn't help that I have a full 2 weeks left before I take off for Central America, while everyone else seems to have a week left of break, at most. Both my parents and my brother also end their respective vacations on Monday, and it feels odd that I should have so much more free time. I don't feel like I'm properly utilizing it.
I told myself I'd never take a winter class ever again, after the first time, but I think that if I have enough money, I might go for it. As much as it's nice to see my parents and friends, I really don't like this endless doldrums and unreasonably long break. Maybe if they offer PORT305 (Portuguese for speakers of Spanish, an accelerated course), I could take that over the winter next year. :P Hurrah for a year's worth of Portuguese in more or less a month. Yay! I like this idea already.
Also, I sliced my hand open with a guitar string. Apparently. Wtf, life...wtf.
Which makes me wonder why I'm still such an restless lump of unhappy.
I am thinking...that when I get bored, those are the moments when depression hits hardest and cuts deepest. I had come up with a whole bunch of ideas for things I wanted to do and accomplish over the break, but I have forgotten many, and those I can recall now seem unappealing without exception.
It doesn't help that I have a full 2 weeks left before I take off for Central America, while everyone else seems to have a week left of break, at most. Both my parents and my brother also end their respective vacations on Monday, and it feels odd that I should have so much more free time. I don't feel like I'm properly utilizing it.
I told myself I'd never take a winter class ever again, after the first time, but I think that if I have enough money, I might go for it. As much as it's nice to see my parents and friends, I really don't like this endless doldrums and unreasonably long break. Maybe if they offer PORT305 (Portuguese for speakers of Spanish, an accelerated course), I could take that over the winter next year. :P Hurrah for a year's worth of Portuguese in more or less a month. Yay! I like this idea already.
Also, I sliced my hand open with a guitar string. Apparently. Wtf, life...wtf.
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Date: 2010-01-04 04:14 am (UTC)And Holmes was AMAZING.
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Date: 2010-01-04 06:55 am (UTC)And yea, it's odd, there are times when I almost feel like I'd sooner be totally overwhelmed than bored. Boredom is one of the greatest emotional evils.
PS: no, I don't write fiction. :( I kind of wish I could, and I used to try, but I have absolutely no creativity. I'm flattered that you like my writing though. :)